It might be in regard to a parenting issue I have, something in our marriage I feel I am screwing up, when I burn a steak cooking dinner, etc. So often, maybe too often, I look in a mirror and don't like what I am seeing.
I don't like seeing how flawed I am because I know my flaws don't just affect me. There is often a ripple effect with the wrong I do or mistakes I make that impact those around me. Sometimes what is most disturbing is when I think what I am doing is the right thing or the healthy thing but then I find out that it's been affecting someone negatively for a while.
I am not a perfectionist, but I am a people pleasure. I don't like disappointing or failing those around me especially when I want to care for them so much.
The only thing I can do is when I feel like I am sucking a lot in life is get real specific on what areas I can work on. I need to invite God's wisdom & direction so that my life isn't just about me. I know the reality is I will fail people in small & large ways in life, but my hope is I fail less & less as I pay more and more attention to those areas that need re-worked.
How do you look at the areas of life that you feel is flawed?
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