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Who I amReside in St. Louis Missouri currently, Lived in California & Colorado.Husband.Father.Pastor.Football Enthusiast.Teacher.Learner.Dreamer.Reader.Friend. [thoughts & comments blogged here are my reflections living life trusting Jesus as God]

Thursday, May 01, 2008

Can i Just get this off my chest-

I admit there a few things that really disturb me and frustrate me about life. The list would be too difficult to explain in detail here, but something that really has been frustrating me in many ways and i shall discuss it now.

Life is way too short and very unpredictable. Life has challenges, frustrations and definite uncertainties. Within that context i really don't understand how people are so satisfied by living mediocre lives? So many people, enjoy the routine of the normal and ordinary and never venture into a life that really would satisfy some of the natural longings of their soul. We tend to believe, about age 27-32 i think, that now that your old enough you should mature and live a normal life.
I am not saying that people need to be like me and live for a rush, new experience or adrenaline surge. But realistically there is something in the core of every human soul that desires & longs for an intimate encounter with life. We want to enjoy the world around us.
Think about it for a moment. Travel is so luring, we dream of vacations & adventures. We get caught up playing with children and the laughter that comes with their childlike attitude and faith. We long for a night out with friends to share stories. We get drawn into people who have so many experiences or adventures. The movies and TV shows we attach ourselves to almost allow us to live out fantasies that get buried in the back of our minds cause "we have to live real lives to pay bills and be safe."
Forgive me for maybe the sense of lack of care (or maturity) this may sound like, but i want my life to scream adventure. i want my kids to understand that anything that feels 'normal' usually leads to a death of something deeper inside of you. There is no problem with enjoying a certain routine or patter of life, but never settle for the 'mediocre'.
Growing up we were never wealthy. In fact at times, flat broke, but my mom ALWAYS spoke into our lives to live out our dreams and pursue life. My grandma always told me, "do what makes you happy, just make sure you can enjoy it and it is best for everyone". This is a woman who in her 80's traveled the world and never considered herself a senior citizen. She would get dirty just for the sake of getting dirty. Mom would always create an adventure. At times i would push it away cause of the whole teen push back against parent phase thing, but i look back and realize the missed opportunity i had.
So now to try and make some sort of sense of all this ramblings.

I am married to a woman who craves adventures more than me. I have 2 boys who love the words "lets go on an adventure". I day dream of wonderful adventures in my life, that speak to the depth of my deepest core.
I have to fight against the things that can steal all that away from me. I have to choose a life, unprecedented and at times chaotic so i can live life to the fullest.
I wanna be 110 and still looking for another opportunity to live life with excitement and passion. May i never put my feet up on a couch and say, i am ready to be normal.

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